Reasons why October is the best month:
- Cold but dry weather
- Everything is pretty colours
- Pumpkin pie
- Pumpkin coffee
- Everything being made to look spooky
- Horror movies on TV all the time
- Jumper weather
- Dressing up as scary things
- Hot drinks
- Lots of sweets
can we all conclude that skinny shaming isn’t a thing at all but also like let’s not pretend like nicki’s video was made to uplift fat girls when really all it does is glorify the extremely hard to achieve ‘extremely small waist/big ass’ look that is very in at the moment, none of the girls in the video were fat at all and all fit the ~skinny thicc~ look that is very en vogue atm like let’s be very real
An anon asked for some progress pictures so they could try seek some inspiration from them. Now instead of posting photos of me as a skeleton and photos of me now at a healthy weight I thought I would instead post photos that show a clear difference in the way I’m feeling.
On the left we have me in the depths of my disorder, a disorder that stole my smile, my giggle, and my personality. Slowly turning into anorexia, losing every single part of me that is left. The misery I felt cannot compare to any other emotion it’s like an ache in your body, your mind and your heart. I MEAN I HAD A BAND ON MY HEAD SAYING ‘I AM A SOCK’ AND I HAD TO FORCE A SMILE??? I MEAN HOW DID I NOT FIND THAT FUNNY? Anorexia wanted me dead and I was beginning to agree, I couldn’t bare living anymore. What I didn’t understand was that I couldn’t bare living THE WAY I WAS anymore.
Recovery, the hardest thing I have ever done and the hardest thing I continue to do everyday. Every minute of every hour of every day you HAVE to fight. It’s tiring, it’s strenuous, it’s really really scary but wow is it worth it. I’m finally getting my smile back. A real proper little girl smile. A smile that my loved ones never thought they’d see again. Recovery isn’t easy, it really isn’t and sometimes it can feel like a waste of time but it’s not, I promise it’s not. Hold on for the days you feel a chuckle in your heart an a smile creeping across your face. Believe you deserve more because you really do. Don’t settle for anything but the best, recovery will give you more than what the disorder promises. The disorder lies recovery provides.
So no, it is not always about saying look how skinny I was and how healthy I am now. Sometimes it is about acknowledging the fact you can smile and laugh again. You can live again.